Happy Friday friends!! Today is the last day of school for my boys and it feels bittersweet. It has been a great year and although I do know all good things must come to an end, I guess a part of me doesn’t want to fully recognize that they are growing up and getting bigger. It’s all going by too fast. I am trying to hold on so tight to this time together because I want to always remember the pure joy I feel. I have written so often how important it is for me to “be present” because I know from the personal experience of loss that these small moments of time are such a gift.
I have been struggling with something and have tried hard over the last few months to find balance with it. Keep in mind that when you are a blogger you are working at different times of the day and social media is a very large part of the equation. I know that, I get that. Well one evening a few months back my boys and I were outside in the backyard. They were playing soccer and I was watching. I realized I needed to post something on SM. So I started to write and became immersed in my phone. All of a sudden I heard the sweetest laughs coming from the other side of the yard and Shane said, “mom did you see that?” a sudden wave of guilt and sadness came over me. I said “no, I missed it bud, I am sorry” they both stopped laughing and looked at me with disappointment. I know I can’t be there to see everything, all the time but I guess the thing that struck me was that I was there and made a choice. I made a choice to not look up and be in the moment with them. That realization hit me hard. That post didn’t really matter (at that time) but that moment with them did. I want to be looking up, not down and being all in for these amazing little pieces of time.
So… I decided to set boundaries with blogging and how it relates to social media. When they come home it’s their time, unless they are at an activity, then I have more flexibility. I have voluntarily chose to be a silent presence whenever I can on my personal accounts because I would rather be living the moment then writing about it. I don’t want anyone to take offense by this, for other people I think it comes more naturally. I still go back & forth with this because SM is really the way we all connect and I do want that but at the end of the day I want it more with my family I suppose. So if you notice me being quiet, it’s not that I don’t care or value all of you, I do more than you can imagine. I just need to find balance with my family. This summer I plan on working in the mornings and playing with my family in the afternoon. My goal is to write more personal posts like this one and bring you the real person behind the blog. I also have some fun projects ahead I think you will really like and I am still writing for BHG and I will continue to bring you those as well.
Do any of you struggle with this?
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Speaking of Better Homes & Gardens I am sharing a great article about sheds. We have all become obsessed (me included) with the idea of a little backyard hideaway where we can work, relax and maybe entertain. I have found 8 incredible ideas for creating a stylish shed. Come on over to read more.
I am sure some of you are in full summer swing already so I hope you are enjoying it and it’s Friday so I hope you all have a great weekend!!!